Grief and Sorrow
Friday, August 31, 2007
hmmm.. i am enlightened?? haha..

jus now while having lunch wif my bro.. i was tinking how to solve the misery that i am suffering rite now.. and i tink.. i hav found solutions!!

the solution will be that i hav to forget that i hav ever study wif my best fren and hav lots of fun.. not reli forget.. but jus put it aside and stored it.. when i finish A lvl den put it back in my memories.. but now hav to keep it aside.. in this way.. i will not be sad that how come last time can study so happy den now lyk study alone isnt a fun thing to do.. if i forget abt it.. den i wont even feel sad!! cos if i nv hav it b4.. i will not tink abt it!! yup i tink this is my solution!!

yup.. hmmm.. i tink.. i am blessed to hav alot of things.. i dunno why but i jus suddenly tink abt it.. is lyk.. is gd to hav frens sms-ing u.. cos it means ppl noe ur existence.. its a blessing to hav: computers and play; frens arnd u; studying together; a brother who dote me; father even though he dun earn alot and care much but still i hav 1; handphone; a place to slp; slippers; shoes; frens who u can tell them ur deepest secret and u noe they will keep it for u.. aiya basically everything!! ahaha.. as in.. jiu very xin fu ba.. not being rich and able to buy alot of nice things doesnt mean i cant hav happiness! anything that u hav now.. maybe it doesnt seems to hav alot of values.. but still.. it is impt!! it plays a part in our lives!! yup!! cherish them b4 its lost..

why must everything be lost 1st in order to cherish them? i tot i learn it thru the last lesson? but i guess i haven.. hmmm.. everyday can be a happy day.. jus that different day hav different among of happiness/blessing.. sometimes when i am enjoying something.. i ask myself.. wad if this is the last time i can enjoy this kind of happiness? actually.. there is nth u can do u noe.. u cant hold it and bring it to the next time u wan to enjoy this kind of 'xin fu' again.. perhaps wad u can do is jus.. rmb the feeling of how it lyk.. and be glad that u hav it b4.. i tink thats the only thing u can do..

when 1 day.. u realise u hav lost some kind of blessing.. u will be sad definitely.. but den.. u can only blame urself and no one else.. why? cos u must hav done something wrong to cause it to be lost.. its quite scary actually.. suddenly something u can hav ytd, u lose it today.. and den in ur heart u r tinking.. i haven enjoy it enough.. how can u jus take it away from me?? den the answer will be.. i am so sry u hav done something wrong.. perhaps u didnt realise it.. but i am so sry that u wont be able to hav it again..

sometimes life is reli cruel.. they dun giv u a second chance to let u prove urself.. its jus too late.. sometimes they do giv u a second chance, third, fourth and carry on.. den when u take it for granted.. suddenly ur fren doesnt giv u a chance anymore.. they had enough of u.. of ur unreasonable side.. den when u reli wan to prove that u can be gd.. u may nv hav the chance again.. not anymore.. its jus too late..

advise for this will be: when u start to realise u r doing the wrong thing all the times, and ur fren is still giving u a chance to change.. seize it!! if not.. even though they might say its okay.. its nv okay.. as in.. dun tink that its okay.. u hav to reli change if u still wan this fren to be wad he/she is lyk.. as in the way they treat u.. or if not.. they may jus change the way of treating u and u ask them wad happen? they will not tell u and say nth is wrong.. i am liddat.. and u realise.. holy shit.. its too late..

no one will suddenly change their attitude towards u.. it must hav been something u hav done.. which giv them a reason to change.. no one will treat u badly if u r a gd ppl rite? i tink this is true ba.. hmmm.. when u reli lost something.. i guess it jus means ur time if up.. i dun mean u gonna die.. but i mean yup thats all the happiness of a particular thing u can hav..

well.. wad i wan to say is.. yes ppl always say the same thing.. i guess it will be same as wad i gonna say too.. cherish everything u hav now!! serious.. anything that u hav now.. every little or major thing.. when someone call u.. be glad they called u.. and answer them nicely!! when someone sms u.. no matter who is it.. be glad they sms u.. or even when they reply.. no everyone will reply u noe.. reli hav to be grateful to everything.. so now wadever i do.. i will jus tink.. glad to hav u here.. yup..

i tink thats all i wan to say.. gtg studying already!! ahaha.. cya all.. i tink some of the things i say is repetitive.. but den i hope it enlighten some of u all too? well if it doesnt den nvm.. at least i tried.. i am glad that i tried to.. sharing feelings may help others to realise wad they r doing too? haha.. yup.. thats wad i wan to say ba.. cya all!! =)

LoOkiNg FoR mY gUaRdiAn AnGeL @ 9:48 PM