Grief and Sorrow
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
so long neva blog.. saying no time is just an excuses.. haha..

haha.. the title was saying i am a bad boy.. lol.. lame kid.. i mean me myself.. haha..

hmm.. what did i do the last 3 days? haha.. not very sure either.. know that isnt really exciting or interesting.. haha.. lemme think.. o sunday.. i went to my ex-neighbour house again and n00b ar0und.. haha.. as usual.. played soccer.. haha.. why everytime same.. need exercise de mah.. haha.. den normal lar.. nth much for that day.. o my ex-neighbour cousin came.. they all ar.. wha lyk punk liao.. dye hair lar.. den got chain around the neck lar.. den abit dao dao de.. lol.. haiz.. lol.. but is ok though.. not my prob.. haha..

den ytd.. hmm.. oya.. my bro was at home!! he take off.. cause he deepavali got work so he can take off 1 day which is today.. lol.. den i wasnt able to use til very late.. haha.. den erm.. my bro went out and i was to stay at home.. why liddat one.. last time my aunt say he should change time to 8am-5pm everyday.. den i ask him change liao mah.. den he say to me that dun change so that i can go out.. understand? liddat.. den i was lyk.. ok.. that gd.. but now.. he was the one going out lor.. not me leh.. lyk wth.. k still nvm..

den today.. tuesday.. i need to go for choir.. and he still go out.. and neva stay at home take care of mum.. and i after choir den go back as soon as possible.. when i come back liao he still haven come home.. lyk he was the one who is always going out lor.. haizz.. nvm.. being youngest is liddat.. forget it.. dun wanna think abt it liao..

anyway today got choir.. den went for the practice was lyk only learnt finsih 1 song.. and that is jingle bells.. haha.. lyk 2 hrs leh den only learn 1 song.. which is suppose to be quite easy de.. den later last 10 minutes was discussing abt sch or mr teh lost of digital camera.. haizz.. who could hav took it? who knows.. ahaha.. if we know wont be here thinking liao.. haha.. den the guys were to find mr bala and mr shahari.. den we find a way to find mr bala.. that is to do something bad.. haha.. quite n00b though.. den we play basketball.. den after awhile started raining.. den we think maybe mr bala will come out.. but he didnt.. den was lyk too big liao den we went in canteen.. haha.. den later went to AMK eat long john silver stuff.. haha.. den later went comic shop and den went home and n00b ar0und.. lol.. that all for today i guess.. haha.. hope i will blog regularly.. =P

LoOkiNg FoR mY gUaRdiAn AnGeL @ 11:57 PM

Saturday, November 27, 2004
performing at Serangoon Garden Country Club.. haha..

today was slacking again.. put alarm at 8.50am.. den wake up den slp again.. lyk still blur blur de.. haha.. den in the end wake up at 10.30am.. decided to really wake up!! den went out of my bedroom and saw the tv broadcasting.. POKEMON!! den i 'jing sheng' liao.. haha.. cause got something to do.. and i just realise it was saturday!! i thought was weekdays leh.. still n00bing ar0und..

den later sms sebas ask him whether got go daniel house and meet or not.. and ask whether zheng rui and hwei zhong got go as well or not.. den he told me zheng rui not going caroling le.. lol.. den blah blah blah.. i olso forgot what i did liao.. lol..

haha.. anyway.. den i 3pm go bath.. den 3.30pm went out of house go for choir.. they say small gate neva open.. den someone told me got.. but to play safe.. i went for the main gate.. ahaha.. den took 55 to J8.. den walk to bishan interchange.. i thinik walk from here faster den take 55 go 1 round to interchange mah.. den i dunno take which colour 410.. still wasnt sure.. den i sms hwei zhong.. den hwei zhong dunno tell me ask val or kuo en.. den i ask kuo en as she live around this area.. den so long neva reply.. i hav to gamble.. den i took white.. someone told me this morning.. she was quite sure abt it.. more sure den hwei zhong who told me to take green.. den i see the map of green and white lar.. den see white should be correct.. cause neva put bishan park sec or peirce sec.. den blurring.. den took white.. and thank god.. i was rite.. haha..

den reach sch.. was 4pm!! gotta rush.. cause the bus bring us to SGCC r coming at 4pm sharp.. den i reach the part where i can see peirce main gate.. only saw alot of gals standing there.. and no sign of bus.. den i slow down den stroll there.. lol..

den ask them how come bus so slow haven come.. den they dunno.. ask them where is hwei zhong.. cause hwei zhong told me he reach sch liao.. den he was stuck in the sch.. the main-gate is lock!! lol.. but evetually they came out.. lol.. den the bus around 4.35pm den come.. so late.. haha.. but still ok i guess.. den take to SGCC.. den saw sebas and daniel there.. den later go into a room.. practice.. den later 6pm got break.. went to another room take packets of drinks from ice cold water!! still got ice de.. shiok seh.. haha.. den i go in take out.. den hand lyk so numb de.. den help others olso.. den after that went to a room again.. another different room again.. there eat dinner.. after that we guys were ask to go out of that room as gals gonna change their clothes inside.. haha.. den later the flute-tist came (dunno how to spell..) and other helpers.. helpers as in help us in some part of the singing.. haha.. den 1 was mr chen.. den was lyk he dunno den wanna go in the room.. den we told him that inside gals changing.. den he funny go say.. ' why? why cant i go in?'.. lol.. den got the face.. lol..

den later practice awhile den b4 practice the whole thing the host came in say change of program den we gonna sing earlier.. den was lyk omg.. haha.. but got experience b4 so nvm lar.. haha.. den xinmin and huiyun was the mc introducing the choir and the songs.. den the 1st few songs was lyk perspiring so much.. den after that ok liao.. haha.. den sing finsih went back top the room de the girls were lyk kick the high heels out of their feet.. cause they r in pain.. lol.. den later blah blah blah went back to the bus and took us to AMK MRT station.. haha.. den after that went home and slack.. lol.. i think that all ba.. haha..

LoOkiNg FoR mY gUaRdiAn AnGeL @ 11:59 PM

Thursday, November 25, 2004
tired seh.. after chalet and camp.. haha..

didnt blog for quite long rite.. ahaha.. so stagnant i know.. =P .. really hav got no time to come.. latest sunday and monday was at chalet and tuesday til today was at choir training camp.. wha.. realy tired.. since just came out from camp.. can tok abt camp cause is still quite fresh in my memory.. haha..

tuesday morning i woke up at around 6.30am den brush teeth all these den pack choir camp de bag.. lol.. ling shi bao fo jiao.. ahahaha.. den pack til 8.30 haven finish.. was n00bing ar0und.. haha.. den go bath quickly den go sch liao.. suppose to reach sch at 9.30am de but i reach at.. 9.40am ba.. haha.. need to reach sch earlier cause committee de.. den reach there i was late.. haha.. den later do schedule again cause something wrong i think.. den blah blah blah.. den 11.30am around there guys go eat.. den walk half way ppl call tell us 'da pao' back for them to eat.. lol.. den later finish eating went back den gals eat den assemble cause around 12.35am liao.. den marg tell us our grp den blah blah blah.. my grp was luyun(leader).. joei.. ying zheng.. xinmin.. luckily got xinmin cause can tok to her better.. lol.. as in in this grp.. den heard that luyun is a gd ppl.. den should be quite ok.. haha.. den grping continue.. den my grp name was call,' ravel'.. ya.. i always pronounce wrongly become 'river'.. lol..

den what next ar.. lemme think.. i think is choir practice ba.. lol.. oya put bag in IT humanities room den dunno do what.. brief us den tell me us make cheer.. den xinmin so fast make one liao.. den we learn.. den later every group olso got cheer.. den later go ava liao den choir practice.. just now say wrong.. lol.. den blah blah blah dinner time.. choir practice got learn new snog.. but forgot liao.. haha.. den dinner wha got chicken wing fried de so nice den veggie den egg.. so nice 1st dinner.. den soya bean drink.. packet de.. wan chrysenthemum tea de.. but dun hav cause finish liao.. oya before eat olso need cheer.. haha.. den eat den later go ava slack as the floaters prepare the nite activity stuff.. actually is practice choir idol stuff lar.. den me and daniel and sebas and hwei zhong still choosing to sing what song.. den finally the game is starting..

we started get blind-folded den each grp leader will be brought to some place in ava.. as luyun was busy as she was doing the nite activity preparation stuff olso.. den take the leader place awhile.. den must use ears to get the members back to the leaders.. my team won.. lol.. den get to start the game 1st.. walk outside of ava.. sebas bring us n00b around.. den lead us lyk got steps.. got something on top.. sometimes fake de as i feel there is nth in the sky when i raise up my had nth on top lor.. lol.. den me walk abit fast den pang seh xinmin alot of times.. didnt know lar.. lol.. den when finish we went to use water bomb to play ppl.. actually only me cause the gals went back to baths 1st.. haha.. den i throw at daniel and hwei zhong.. lol.. den later ask grp by grp when come back for comments.. den some say fun some not lor.. haha.. think liddat write til tml olso haven finish.. think need cut short.. lol.. den later all finish bathing den debrief.. den slp.. den 1st day guys play true or dare.. actually no dare de.. can only hav truth.. den play til 3am+ went down to drink water saw some floaters down there.. den scouts cant slp need to be awake if not tio scolding.. den blah blah den went back play for awhile more den slp liao.. which is around 4.30am+ liao..

den wake up around 6.15am.. den do 5 basic exercise.. den eat breakfast nly got bread and milo.. the milo very blant sia.. lyk plain water liddat.. but neva mind lar.. haha.. den later play treasure hunt.. den got alot of fun stuff.. but dun wan this entry to be TOOOOOOO lengthy so dun wan say too much.. den cant finish playing the game cause raining.. den no one got the treasure.. haha.. den later choir practice from 1-6+pm leh!! super long.. den we so tired cause alot of ppl neva slp well.. den voice tired sing not very gd lor the sound.. anyway this was a long practice.. den dinner the dinner damn nice until dun even wan to eat.. everyday same food one.. den choir idol rehersal.. miss khai promise us to bring her disc but dun hav.. she say she cant come.. den we change song to jay chou de 'jian dan de ai'.. i dunno how to sing.. den trying very hard to memorise it.. but the time was too short.. den not enough time.. den choir idol come le.. 2nd grp.. den i forgot 95% of the lyrics.. den down there stare at air-con stare dunno where den in the end neva sing much.. they still video-tape somemore.. die liao.. next year see the video tape i wanna cry.. lol.. but nvm.. den the lucius from sec4 came to be the host.. den he was.."the hotline for this contestant was blah blah blah.." liddat.. haha..

den later part when announcing the winner.. the judges ask the host to sing a song.. solo.. den he sing 'only love'.. lol.. very nice.. den eliminate until left 2 grp den say will announce the winner tml.. haha.. den go back dance studio.. lyk n00b ar0und 1st den slp.. sebas and hwei zhong was wrestling for fun den zheng rui become referee.. den the other funfair den play the referee.. den i was the camera-man.. den later we play chess.. den see the magazine for last 2 years.. oya we got unexpected guest.. some other ppl lar.. haha.. but is male.. lol.. or rather.. males.. haha.. and zheng rui brought a bottle of sprite ice back.. but wasnt cold den we drank abit only.. lyk not more den 300ml.. den awhile more slp liao..

the next day my alarm clock rang but i put it in 'snooze' which means 5 minutes later call me but it didnt.. guess i didnt press properly.. den priscillia and huili and xin ru i think came in dance studio and woke us up.. which is around 6.50am already.. haha.. den thought was late but they was even later.. i mean the gals.. haha.. den n00b ar0und den 5BX again den later bread and milo again.. this time round no one went to take cup to drink milo.. den the floaters abit not happy den complain to miss lau i think den miss lau scolded us lar.. haha.. den later i drank the milo very sweet today.. den we r suppose to clean the hall for my grp.. den zhi'er was in charge of us.. den say no need clean til so hard or nice cause it cant be clean off de.. den alot of ppl complain alot to zhier.. haha..

omg.. i slp while writing this blog den just awake den forgot to off com and now is 4.57am.. wha die liao.. tml den carry on lar..

haha.. back again.. just editing it to finish it.. lol.. alot of ppl complaining to zhier abt the overall camp.. lyk marg shouldnt use vulgar even though she was really pissed.. lol.. all these and that lar.. dun wanna say everything.. lol.. dun remember so much olso.. haha.. den clean the hall olso no use.. the thing will pop up again dunno why.. den zhier tell me dun clean le.. cant clean it off olso.. haha.. unless mop the floor of the hall.. but so big half-an-hour sure not enough.. so neva mop lor.. haha..

den later finish go ava den need sing for miss lau.. but the guys and sop almost all no sound liao den in the end neva and debrief earlier lor.. haha.. den later go prata house near hwei zhong there and eat.. got sebas zhier and hwei zhong lor.. lol.. den eat den go home liao.. den sebas and zhier go hwei zhong house.. i need go home cause bro not at home.. den so tired den rest awhile den later online den tok tok tok on msn den til now den slp lor.. haha.. liddat.. haha..

LoOkiNg FoR mY gUaRdiAn AnGeL @ 11:59 PM

Wednesday, November 17, 2004
wha.. inter-net down.. re-format com again.. lol..

wha.. it has been.. dunno how many days since i blog.. haha.. i think is 6 days.. 6 long days man.. haha.. cause it was lyk.. i cant open.. my computer.. my document.. other stuff.. when double-click den will blackout awhile den back.. but neva open the thing i wan them to open.. haha.. den my bro dun wan see so lag den he wan re-format com.. again.. haha..

last sunday was a even date.. so i went to my ex-neighbour block.. b4 i move house. i went back there and play.. haha.. as usual we played soccer all these.. just that last few weeks neva come exercise.. lol..

monday and tuesday which is yesterday what happen ar? lol.. i olso forgot.. but anyway is not really important things happen cause if it is i will rmemeber.. haha.. but i know 'ren wo ao you' final episode liao.. den today show kai wei choose jing wen.. lol.. for lyk.. not even 3 minutes end le.. haha..

oya.. these few days i was play the game call maplestory.. haha.. was really playing for a long time.. ahaha.. and today hav e maths remedial.. actually not remedial lar.. haha.. go there do test only.. den after that stayed back to do some choir stuff.. testing the games for choir camp.. haha.. and of course.. is for me to know and for u to find out.. lol.. den went home.. play awhile maplystory and den go hospital wif my mum and dad.. den later go home eat dinner and continue playing.. lol..

now is already 1.59am liao.. haha.. i actually dozed off writing this entry.. but thx to someone woke me up.. if not i will waste electricity.. lol.. ya.. think i gtg slp already.. if not really wil waste electricity.. lol.. cya..

LoOkiNg FoR mY gUaRdiAn AnGeL @ 11:59 PM

Thursday, November 11, 2004
What a gd deepavali it was.. haha..

wha.. today cant go out!! it was deepavali!! public holiday and i cant go out!! wha.. sad sia.. stayed at home almost whole day (other den go out buy meals come back eat..) !! was suppose to go out wif movie gang de.. long time beva go out together le.. but so sway was on odd dates!! haizz..

den ytd got choir.. learnt new song for christmas carols.. haha.. is jingle bells!! lol.. was abit difficult but guess is still quite ok.. haha.. den oya morning got maths remedial.. saw ppl still strolling in when is 8.40am.. so i thought today class must be late.. so i olso stroll in.. den b4 walking to atrium saw ziyi, daniel and hwei zhong at the bookshop giving the booklist.. lol.. den really think class haven start.. den later awhile they remember 15 minutes the doors will be lock.. den we ran up and was really lock.. den saw e3 and e4 students.. den find it weird.. den ask them.. den realise we went wrong de.. den we go kaino lab den no students.. den mr ong say students r suppose to be in ava listening to discipline tok in ava.. lol.. but nvm actually.. den later carry on wif lessons.. haha.. den later finish b4 choir go tp eat again den come back for choir.. haha..

den today was so boring!! neva go out!! den at home.. using com.. see no one online.. ppl must hav being out playing wif their friends.. me? at home using com.. den so sian.. den saw my pri sch friend de nick.. den saw a game name.. go try it.. downloading time so long!! haha.. den i download part by part.. the game is called 'maple story'.. i downloading half-way trying to find ppl to accompany play the game.. den saw qiyun online den ask her.. haha.. den she accompany download.. and she was much faster!! haha.. den just now at nite login got prob.. hope by tml can play le.. haizz.. if anyone wanna try.. go www.mapleglobal.com den go download as well.. haha..

den liddat lor.. for today.. haha.. tml got test.. i haven study.. still here noobing around.. lol.. gtg slp if not tml late again.. haha.. cya!

LoOkiNg FoR mY gUaRdiAn AnGeL @ 11:52 PM

Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Back to sch.. haha..

wha.. ytd and today both olso got go sch.. ytd woke up at 7am.. den thought i plan well but in the end.. i was late.. actually shouldnt be one.. but didnt know the traffic was heavy at around 8am.. i 8.10am go out take bus le.. normally 20 minutes can reach sch.. but dunno why today.. i 8.48am around there den reach sch leh. so late.. den i was walking to atrium.. cause thought they say in atrium.. but carisa told me was in ava.. at 1st abit scare dun dare go in.. so late liao.. but of course in the end go in.. den wha so many ppl le.. neva really greet teachers olso.. den go sit liao.. haha..

den today.. i 6.30am wake up.. try to be early.. den i 8am den go out.. den take bus den was still late.. i reach sch at around 8.35am.. but wasnt actually late.. cause the lesson haven start.. the teacher dunno where they r den the lesson started late.. so i wasnt late.. lol.. haha.. den after 1st part.. den 2nd part of maths lesson was at kaino lab.. den early guys go 1st.. finish eating already.. den we all go in.. den no teacher.. den in the room alot of 'pillow' lor.. blue de.. for ppl to sit de.. den can use spin all those lar.. den the guys n00bing ar0und throw the pillow at each other.. lol.. so dumb.. haha.. den got some dunno how to aim throw until fan.. but luckily nth much happen.. fan still working.. lol.. den hav our lesson.. was extended abit..

den b4 choir.. we went to TP to eat.. we ate KFC.. wha b4 choir still eat KFC.. bad bad.. but luckily nth bad happen.. cause we dun hav any sore throat or cough later on.. haha.. den went to buy CD.. lol.. den later see time quite late scare late den return sch le.. but hor mr ong wasnt here yet.. actually he was but still parking his car i think.. haha..

den we go choir!! lol.. long time no sing.. haha.. den we went through christmas carols songs again.. roy and i know all the songs den sebas dunno abit only den daniel and hwei zhong dunno more.. haha.. anyway tried to teach them abit.. hope they did learn.. and den one stupid happened was i tore my paper.. haha.. dunno wanna say already.. felt sad for my paper.. =P .. haha.. was doing stupid stuff.. haha.. den this session was extended olso from 5pm until 6pm.. alot leh.. i was suppose to go home to take care of mum.. but still quite ok i guess.. haha..

den reach home awhile den go buy dinner le.. miss 15 minutes of double happiness 2.. haha.. but think is ok.. haha.. anyway eat finish come online liao.. tml got sch.. wanna slp early.. haha.. cya!

LoOkiNg FoR mY gUaRdiAn AnGeL @ 11:11 PM

Sunday, November 07, 2004
Omg.. muscle ache almost everywhere..

wha.. today wake up so pain!! haha.. not really very pain lar.. but feel ache all over.. arm.. shoulder.. chest.. stomach.. wha.. today not gonna be a gd day.. haha..

woke up at 8.30am.. around there lar.. ahaha.. den later eat maggie mee.. den later watch tv awhile.. den use com play gb.. ahaha.. actually is cause no one online den play awhile.. den my ex-neighbour called me ask me whether i can go over and played wif them or not.. i say cant.. the reason is cause i hav to take care of my mum.. as my bro wasnt home today so i cant and suppose not to go anywhere..

den around afternoon.. i went out to buy lunch.. come back eat awhile my father's brother's wife and son and daughter come to visit us.. cos of my mum.. so caring.. so nice of them.. den b4 they go.. they gav my mum an ang bao.. haha.. den after that they went home.. they stayed for around an hour.. den i use com again.. ahaha..

toking abt ppl visiting my mum.. ytd my bro friends came to visit my mum as well.. my bro bring them one.. they brought food and stuff for my mum.. so kind of them too.. although they dont know her well.. but is still nice of them.. 1 of them was my bro secondary friends.. he say i hav grown tall.. last time he saw me.. when he was sec 4.. i was still pri 5.. haha.. they come at around 10+pm.. so late yet they still came.. of course they can.. how old r they.. 19-20 yrs? haha..

den today when putting the clothes out of the window to hang to dry it.. den abit pain cause of the ache.. imagine 1 more day wif this.. haha.. omg.. haha.. tml still got sch.. how? actually not big deal either.. haha.. guess is time for me to rest.. tml gotta wake up early.. actually now time is 12.25am 8 Nov.. but den all these happen on 7 Nov.. lol.. so i put this time.. anyway if ppl cant find the tag board.. is up there!! haha.. cya..

LoOkiNg FoR mY gUaRdiAn AnGeL @ 11:59 PM

Saturday, November 06, 2004
1st day at gym!! haha..

wha.. still waiting for ppl from OBS and come online.. wait til afternoon le still not back.. i thought normally camp is morning afternoon come back de.. as in early afternoon.. around 12-1 pm mah.. haha.. den go play games lor.. kill time.. den suddenly remember edwin always ask me to go gym.. why not today.. since nth to do.. haha.. so ask him whether wanna go today.. and he say anytime anyday.. lol.. den go lor..

wha.. so far away from me.. toa payoh leh.. took 3 bus.. 261.. 165.. 163.. den alighted b4 toa payoh interchange de 1 bus stop.. den walk walk den reach liao.. den he bring me to the reception? lol.. dunno what is that called olso.. den admission fee $1.50.. quite cheap i think.. is that u can stay there as long as u wan.. ya.. den go in.. lyk the sch com lab de.. need to write ur name.. den not ic number.. but reciept number.. haha.. den what time u sign in and out olso.. den go in.. know that i am the n00best here.. haha.. see alot of fit and muscular guys.. and some gals.. haha.. but neva notice alot lar.. den saw alot of equipment.. put my bag aside.. start working.. ask edwin to show me how to use this and that.. ahaha.. but later found that got instructions one.. lol.. i know i very dumb.. or slow.. ahaha.. den realise how weak am i.. as in.. wha.. edwin seems lyk.. not bad.. den me.. very bad.. lol.. dunno leh.. but lyk i very lan bei.. haha.. shall not tok abt it much.. haha.. cause very 'diu ren xian yan'.. lol.. i think is quite pathetic ba.. but will try my best!! lol.. that is just thinking.. action speaks louder den words.. wait til that day den say.. haha..

from 4.15pm work out until 5.55pm.. around there lar.. haha.. den tired liao.. when i go toilet den go the sink there.. put my hands together to get some water to hydrate my mouth.. dunno use correctly or not.. just to 'water' it lar.. lol.. den when wan life to my mouth lyk got no strength lyk that.. haha.. abit bad leh.. den hor go Mac buy sundae.. 1st time.. lol.. chocolate one.. haha.. den take up bus eat bus driver say must take down and throw.. den say yes den go in sit down.. lol.. den saw the fine $1000 abit scary.. edwin tell me see de den i say if really fine den they might as well announce me bankrupt.. haha.. dunno lar.. lame stuff.. haha..

reach home.. take bath.. but didnt really perspire much.. cause neva run the 'thingy' mah.. haha.. dunno wha izzit called.. something 'mill' de if not wrong.. lol.. anyway den go online again.. still see no one online from OBS de.. sad sad.. perhaps they really too tired den go slp til tml.. haha.. well.. cant blame them.. they really hav fun though.. haha.. okok.. today until here.. haha..

LoOkiNg FoR mY gUaRdiAn AnGeL @ 11:43 PM

Thursday, November 04, 2004
Care Bear.. lol..

since got nth to do.. i saw huiyun blog den decided to try the care bear thingy.. haha.. here is the results..

Love-a-Lot Bear
You love to take care of others and people love being around you because you make them feel appreciated. You are very sweet and soft-spoken. You are also a romantic and consider yourself an excellent matchmaker, so you tend to be a bit nosy. But everyone still considers you the sweetest person they know.


LoOkiNg FoR mY gUaRdiAn AnGeL @ 1:55 AM

Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Cant go out as often as b4.. though is now holidays.. haiz..

didnt blog for so many days.. haha.. wasnt enough time for me to write mah.. haha.. 2 days ago i wanna blog de.. but den my bro got half-day off mah den come back den no time to write lor.. haha..

i wan to write abt 2 days ago de things.. but den i think i forgot what i do le.. haha.. er.. lemme see.. aiya.. really cant remember lar.. lol..

anyway.. supposingly my mum was able to discharged one.. at around 12pm.. which is now? lol.. and i thought i can go out tml.. but due to some other stuff den cant liao.. need to wait longer liao.. which means.. i cant go out again.. haizz.. not say i dun wan visit her lar.. but hor visit until got no time wif friends leh.. which is bad olso.. now holidays le.. b4 holidays.. during exams.. was thinking abt holidays wanna go where all these.. den now almost cant go out wif friends one.. not even an outing lor.. wha sian leh.. as in.. nowadays i either at home, hospital or eating outside.. i wanna cry le.. someonehelp me get rid of this boredom!! haizz..

someone just called me and ask me whether wan go out or not.. i was so delighted leh.. got ppl remember me!! haha.. anyway.. i really wan to go!! seriously!! long time no go out le.. but i cant.. i hav to visit my mum.. i hav to reach b4 my aunt and uncle.. if not they will scold and scold one.. if they wont go hospital today.. i will be able to reach the hospital abit later.. den i am able to go out!! but this dream is shattered again once more cause my aunt told me after sch(she was a pri sch teacher) she will visit mum.. so i think i hav to reach at around 2pm.. wha.. i wan go out one.. why lyk that.. why at this time in holidays happen such a bad thing.. although i know not my mum wan to stay at hospital one.. but why!! haiz.. dunno lar.. i going crazy liao..

ppl who ask me whether wan to go out today and are reading this.. i am sry i cant go.. but still call me ok? i try whenever i can ok? dun leave me alone can le.. thx.. haha..

so now i gonna wait til awhile more later den i go eat brunch den go hospital.. i think i will bring my hw there and do ba.. haha.. cause go there only can watch tv mah.. haha.. den olso not very nice to me.. okok.. gtg soon le.. cya!!

LoOkiNg FoR mY gUaRdiAn AnGeL @ 12:19 PM