Grief and Sorrow
Friday, January 12, 2007
haiz.. feeling unwanted sia.. =(

hmmm.. long time no blog.. no ppl come to my blog le ba i tink.. cos i so long nv update le.. so i can type anything i wan den no one is gonna read it!! =P haha..

hmmm.. today got gp essay test.. i tink i gonna die again.. so long nv write le den now write again dunno how to write le.. haha.. eh.. den quite late dismiss so after that went canteen buy something to eat den zao back to peirce liao.. cos they having cca orientation!! =))

i was looking forward to go back la.. cos i can go visit my sec sch mates!! but den.. haiz.. after everything was kind of sad.. dunno leh.. i go there.. they nv tok to me much.. lyk jiu nv even say more den 5 sentences lor.. i was kind of sad leh.. not jus kind of.. in fact very sad.. i feel that they dun reli care abt me anymore.. =( i dunno leh.. haiz.. i heard that their performance not reli gd thats why they feel sad? if thats the case den i feel that they dun bother abt me its wrong.. cos if they feeling sad den of cos no mood tok ma.. but if not the case.. den wo jiu zhen de sad le.. =(( i tok to them most of them nv reply or jus stone there de.. den after that.. they went to hav dinner.. nv ask me along leh.. no la i dun mean i very dua pai wan them to ask me la.. i jus wan see whether do they noe i actually exist or not.. den it reli seems that i dun exist leh.. omg.. i reli reli sad after that.. feel lyk.. haiz.. nvm.. aiya.. i jus dunno la.. haiz..

den some more lyk even mr phua dun care abt me!! as in.. i say bye to him he olso nv reply.. 3 times leh!! i wave my hand infront of him to show that i am there and saying bye bye to him.. den wah.. he reli didnt see me leh!! i dunno why how come suddenly everyone cant see me?? i am so extra in peirce now.. no one bothers abt me anymore.. i sounds lyk attention-seeker now.. haiz.. i dunno ar.. become too sensitive again.. alamak.. *ar bish* to myself.. okay i am awake.. =x but jus feel sad lor..

but lucky got vincent.. if not ar i tink i reli damn damn extra le.. i went to n00b arnd wif him at amk central and his hse.. haha.. thanks sia for accompanying me.. =)

if the committee feel sad for the performance.. dun sad okay.. cheer up!! yi jing guo qu le.. jus try not to make the same mistake next time.. brush up on the skills and everything and next time wont bad things happen again!! =) u all can do it de gogogo!! i dunno how to cheer u all up.. but jus hope u all will be as cheerful as b4!! pls smile ok.. =)

den today.. suddenly tink of relationship again leh.. dunno why.. hmmm.. i tink today see too many couples arnd.. =x and hear too many those couples' song.. den tink of it.. wah to be in a relationship isnt easy leh.. not easy to find someone u lyk and they lyk u olso lor.. den realise last time i damn tyco den hav la.. now nv le.. den very sad.. today is a saddening day for me ar i tink.. haiyo.. haha.. jus wish that i can get back into a relationship again..

i rmb still got something to say de leh.. but forgot le.. haiya nvm next time if rmb den edit ba.. now olso quite slpy le den cant tink le.. okay jiu thats all ba.. when i got things to share den i will blog again ba.. take care!! =)

LoOkiNg FoR mY gUaRdiAn AnGeL @ 11:51 PM