Grief and Sorrow
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
2yrs ago.. things were so different from now..

hmm.. today i woke up at 9+.. den cos i very kan chiong wan to send a sms.. den cos not time yet den i slp again.. den ring ring!! alarm rang.. lol lyk writing narritive liddat.. den 10am le!! very kan chiong sia i scare i later send at wrong timing.. den ok i go brush teeth and wait for the time to come.. 10:17:56am.. finally 'deng' dao liao den send!! in the end miss by 1 second.. become 10:17:57am.. but nvm la.. beta den nth..

ok this is wad happen.. 2 yrs ago de 10+am.. i was waiting for my turn to cut my hair at a barber shop.. den suddenly i receive an sms!! and its from her!! haha.. actually its jus a normal sms la.. is lyk that kind of sms that says frens lyk u r hard to get that kind of stuff.. den that msg was something that say she is cute de la.. den so i reply her and say.. so bhb!! but anyway next time whenever i am sian can i sms her or when she sian can sms me or something cos when i sian nth to do ma phone to lousy cant play nice game olso.. den she say ok!! den from then on.. we started to be closer to one another.. as in become closer frens.. thats why i rmb that day.. =)

but as we all noe.. things hav change.. not as close as last time anymore.. so i was hoping that this can help abit.. and so i sent the sms!! hoping that she will rmb wad happen 2yrs ago and reply me roughly the same thing that i sms her last time.. but i noe.. this kind of thing wont happen de la.. even drama olso dun hav this kind of thing lor.. gen he kuang shi wo.. haiz.. and den i wait.. and wait.. and as expected.. she didnt reply.. i am so upset.. she didnt rmb anything.. haiz.. den i slpt while waiting..

when i woke up again.. its already 12! and still nv reply.. and i noe she is not gonna reply already.. i tink most prob when she receive the sms she will only read den jus leave it there wont tink of anything olso.. so ya.. jiu zhe yang lor.. i planned this from august waiting for this day to arrive la but den i already noe things wont go according to my dream de lor.. i am still dreaming only lor.. living in my own world.. when will i wake up.. haiz..

den went to cut hair and stuff.. quite ok la abit short.. but at least its not covering my eyes i can write and read and see everything clearly and properly le!! ahaha.. den after that went roy hse wif vincent and study abit ( do only 3qns.. =x ) den go eat and come home le..

went online and yup.. she wasnt online as expected.. major exam coming of cos wont online la.. den i decided i shld not wasted the day.. wu lun ru he dou yao do something!! so i sms her and ask her whether she rmb anything abt the sms 2yrs ago..? wait and wait and wait.. she didnt reply!! =( when i was abt to send the 2nd sms telling her ' can at least reply for today? ' she reply me.. kind of happy at the same time not reli.. cos yup she reply but den she didnt rmb anything.. so i explain to her wad happen.. i tink its kind of lame.. i mean the way i explain.. cos i dunno how olso ma.. den jus explain la.. den lyk ok but she still dun quite rmb.. i guess its only impt to me ba.. no one will rmb except me.. =/

after explain she say still can sian de shi hou sms her but maybe sometimes wont reply cos busy.. but i noe.. i shldnt be bothering her actually.. most of the time olso wont reply de la.. not interested in me ma.. its jus 1-sided.. =/ i shall jus see how it goes ba.. den ya awhile later she fall aslp le.. den ya i noe tml morning sure wont reply one.. cos yea busy ma.. nvm i noe.. =(

ok la i noe la.. i cant go back to the past.. thinking can make history repeat itself.. but in real life.. that doesnt happen de.. 2yrs ago.. how i wish i can go back then.. and restart everything.. nicely and neatly.. without any mistake.. haiz.. alrite i shall not dwell on the past.. lets see wad i can do next to help myself ba.. =/

okie gd nite ppl its late.. tml still need go sch for lesson.. sad.. i wan slp!! 10am got sch how am i suppose to wake up?!? haha.. okie nitex =)

LoOkiNg FoR mY gUaRdiAn AnGeL @ 11:32 PM